Sigh again. And Worried-ness.

Ah well. THis day has been a bad day. In the words of Garfield, "I Hate Mondays."

Anyway, this is what happened. There's this bossy girl who says she isn't bossy. She wants to do a campng trip where she says she doesn't want to force everyone just because she wants to go since she's the non-self-centered person and yet she's doing it. Plus she gave us all jobs to do saying she wants us to learn and get the experience and yet she handles everything again. Bleagh, we call her the Devil's Assistant. Anyway, on a bad note...

I think i'm dying... again. Lol, that's the... how many times? Ah well.. Its just that recently i have been getting these attacks again and all that so yeah. Getting a scared. Plus my grandad is blind. The doctors still don't know if its permamnent or not. If it is... He's not going to remember me at all.. That's what everyone said.. Oh and I failed my chem quiz because of a lot of careless mistakes which even i myself noticed after getting the papers back. Life is grand eh?

My life is crumbling around me today... I mean, i'm depressed and all that! How many times have you seen me in this mode? Bleagh, its just not worth much i guess. I feel.. cheated or something. No, i haven't lost faith in god or any such likes. Its just that... i'm feeling bitter bout everything you know? Its like, hopes dashed.. again. That feeling sucks... Of course, me dying has yet to be decided on christmas week. Oh what a joyful christmas i'll be having then. Lol, i suppose i should'nt talk like its already fated i am going to die eh? Ah well..