Gone... human emotions..

Hi. How ya doin'? Anyway, i think i might be going nuts but... lately, i seem to be devoid of human emotions. Well, most of it anyway. I still feel insecure from time to time and worried like now. I'm not sure why myself. Lately, when my little bro tries to annoy me, i'll just ignore him and when people insulted me, i feel nothing. Really. No joke. As well when my mom hugged me saying how much she loved me and all that, i felt... nothing. Am i going nuts? I hope this will end soon. Of course, i love my family and friends.. but.. can't feel anything. How did i become so numb? What had happened?

It was none of my family members faults nor was it my friends looking back in to the past. I just started to... 'switch' off. Like i'm some sort of machine. It happened again today when i visited my grandparents and the doctors. First, when i saw my grandparents, i would usually rejoice since i haven't seen them in such a long time. But i only felt uncomfortable when they hugged me and tried to break away. Then, the doctors. I always hated going to the doctors especially if needles is involved. I ave this phobia for needles. Anyway, they wanted to do the blood test and they knowing me talked in soothing tones to cool me down. But i just grunted and held out my hands and didn't even wince when they started jabbing. They noticed it and one even questioned me about it. I just ignored him.

Once again the question arises: Am i going crazy? And is it possible for someone, a human being created to feel emotions be devoid of it? I hope not. Well, that's about it.